When someone remarks that they don't like something or seems skeptical about something or complains about something that I suggest or seems like they are distracted while doing said thing; I internalize that and end up not doing it or not suggesting it again or feeling bad if I suggest it or doing it on my own... Even if it's something I like a lot.

But even if it's not something I'm super excited about, or if it's something I'm not sure about, or something that I may not want to do then and there, or even if it's something that I find is not super duper great (in my opinion) -- I go along with it and/or eventually get convinced to do it and give it my full attention (or feel bad when I don't), because it's something the person I care about likes and it matters to me to do something that they enjoy with them and I want them to be happy. And many times I end up liking whatever it is and so it turns out great.

It's takes a lot of thought for me to even just suggest watching TV shows or movies that I want to watch. Because I think about what the other person likes watching, what they don't like watching, what they may want to watch instead, whether the TV will bother them doing what they need to do, etc. I may suggest something but if the other person doesn't seem all that interested; then I don't push it and end up having to strategize on when I get to watch my shows.

(This is just a specific example of something happened when I lived with my family and it is happening again in my new living situation. And it is something that would happen with my friends too. Common denominator being me. Maybe comes from a long history of being a nerdy weirdo and no one really wanting to watch the things I want to watch... Like anime or sci-fi or other "silly" shows...)

Or to suggest eating food that the other person doesn't seem really excited about or has complained about before.

But I don't think this is really all that healthy of me to do. Because I think a lot of the negative feedback I perceive is in my own little head. And so I'm trying to find a good balance.

Of being brave and suggesting things and not backing down on something that I like just because I feel like the other person is not super excited about it or interested (even though they may actually be completely willing.) And knowing the difference between that and something the other person really doesn't want to do and/or is uncomfortable about -- knowing when not to push. (The latter is usually my default state -- I just back down without trying too hard.)

And/or maybe I do need to make more of an effort to voice my opinions about somethings that I may not like so much or may have opinions/counteropinions about. 

But when I then try not to back down and suggest things -- I feel like I come off as being bratty and being all "me, me, me..." and "I, I, I..." And I feel like the other people pick up on it and find me bratty because I usually don't say these things and when I do, it stands out. But me going along with most of the things the other people suggest or do... I don't know if people realize that is happening...

And/or in the rare case that I don't like something... if I say I don't like something or express a not so excited opinion about it I feel bad and horrible -- and I default back to "if you have nothing nice to say, don't say it" as long as it really doesn't matter all that much.

Once upon a time someone told me I had self-confidence issues. It's true. In some cases.